how will I get through the next few days?

I am skating on a numb surface holding me just over a sea of panic.  Some degree of denial is saving me from the horror of possibilities presented by my positive screen for open neural tube defects.

craving fruits

I am craving fruits lately.  In fact, just now seeing that my baby is the size of a plum, made me want a plum!  Luckily, via courage borrowed from my cat (who would go with me if she could), I picked up oranges, apples, grapes, and tomatoes at the store tonight!

first trimester zombie

Although grateful I'm on this side of TTC, I am trudging through the sickness that started at 6 weeks (4 weeks gestation) and makes me a zombie, alternating between eating and feeling yucky.